What am I doing?

Sometimes, even the most ardent pessimist can slip his guard and just for a moment become optimistic. I have never been one to believe that love is all that people say it is. At least not the street variety sold on the streets everyday. But even geniuses make mistakes.

Last week my parents brought home a prospective groom who looked sane enough at first glance. He seemed to really like me and so I took it upon myself to call him and tell him that I am not the "athaan, ungalukkaga naan uyirayae kodupaen kind" and that I would love to adopt a baby and see the world and live a good life. And if he is okay with such an attitude he may proceed. He was surprised but said he expects love and understanding and support in his endeavours from me and the rest is my wish. I was really impressed.

That night we talked and the next day too. He said he really loves me and would never force me into anything even though his parents may not like the adoption idea. I told him that if he is okay with it, then we can face the problems later. He said its fine with him and laid the foundation for us talking even more and I even went out with him twice. Meanwhile, he conveniently chose to tell my ideas to his mother.

After two weeks, he comes back and says, "you give up on your adoption plans and only then I can marry you." I was flabbergasted and I asked him why he agreed in the first place. Pat came the reply, "I thought I can convince you." Till then I never thought I can fall in and out of love so fast.

I think I made the worst mistake in my life by falling for a moron like that and now, if only I can find a way out.

I will :-) I always have.